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King of the Sandlot - Chapter 4

Previously…

Billy Joe spit into his palms and rubbed some fresh dirt in. He was stalling, trying to mess up the pitcher’s rhythm and it was working. He looked up on the mound and saw Lester huffing in frustration. Bottom of the sixth, two out, one on. It might only be the sandlot but with stakes this high it felt like the Series. The top of the sun was just peaking over the fence in right field; in another ten minutes it would be too dark to play.

“Come on, Billy Joe!” Lester’s whine from the mound told Billy Joe it was time to step to the plate.

One pitch, one swing, and the game was over.

His teammates punched his shoulder and patted him on the back with their gloves as they packed up their gear and headed home. But Billy Joe didn’t get to go home to a bowl of Easy Mac and cartoons. He had to head over to the library to meet the tutor Miss Henton had gotten for him. He slung on his backpack, balanced his bat across the handlebars of his bike, and booked to the old house the town had converted into a library.

Billy Joe ran into the library holding his bat like a Viking charging onto the battlefield. Miss Henton told him his tutor would be waiting there at 3:30 but it must be almost 5:00 by now. He took the stairs to the second floor two at a time and skidded across the hardwood floor, coming to a dead stop at the edge of the little study area. It was a cozy spot with a thick rug and comfortable old chairs. They’d all been donated, so none of them matched and they were all a little worn, but it was a nice place to hang out. Billy Joe had spent a lot of rainy Saturdays there reading about his heroes of the diamond. No one ever bothered him because no one really used the library for books anymore. Everyone else was downstairs, crowding into the computer carrels and using the free Internet.

“You’re late.”

Billy Joe was breathing heavy from racing over but now his heart skipped a beat. Suzy Anderson was sitting Indian-style on an old striped couch. She was wearing a jacket and hugging her heavy backpack and looked really angry.

He never expected she’d be his tutor and stumbled all over himself trying to apologize. “Sorry. Game, um, ran long. Didn’t know how late…so you’re the, um, tutor, huh? Henton, Miss Henton, didn’t…really? How are you, I mean, how long did you, have you…how late am I?”

“You tell me.” Suzy said as she pointed to the big white clock on the wall behind Billy Joe.

He spun and his left foot got caught on the rug. He tumbled over, bouncing off a heavily cushioned chair and rolling to the floor at Suzy’s feet. He could feel his face and ears burning with shame - and knew the blushing was making his freckles shine like tiny little taillights - as he hopped quickly to his feet. He looked at his feet as he answered, “almost two hours. I’m really sorry.”

“Tell you what, sportstar,” Suzy said as she pushed up from the couch, “I’ll meet you here tomorrow at 3:15 IF you can tell me what the angle between the hour and minute hands is at that time.”

She was standing right next to him and Billy Joe’s face felt even hotter. He turned around and looked at the clock again, squinting in concentration.

“Zero. It’s zero degrees at 3:15.”

Suzy smirked and started to walk off. “Nope. Close, though. Thanks for playing. And for wasting my time.”

Billy Joe didn’t want Suzy to leave. He’d never cared so much about geometry.

“Look, I’m really sorry, okay? I’m sorry you waited for me. It’s just that—”

Suzy cut him off. “Working on your ‘athlete apologies’ already, I see. How about you try to just be sorry and not make excuses?”

“I’m sorry.”

“That’s better. Now, sit down and I’ll help you figure out the answer to my question. If you get it, I’ll meet you here tomorrow. Otherwise, you’re looking for another tutor.”

Suzy explained that the clock was a circle and could be divided into 360 degrees. That meant that each minute was six degrees and each hour was 30. Billy Joe scratched his head and looked at the drawing of a clock Suzy had made and said, “But if the hour hand’s at the three and so’s the minute hand, there’s no angle between them, right?”

“Does the hour hand just jump from three to four?”

“No.”

“So is it exactly at three when it’s three fifteen?”

It took him a few more minutes, but Billy Joe figured that if the hour hand had traveled a quarter of the way between the three and four, it had gone seven and a half degrees.

“Good. Now be here tomorrow and don’t be late.”

Suzy glided out of the room, leaving Billy Joe in a wake of papers, hormones, and anticipation. He was going to like geometry.

Oct 30, 200911 notes
#King of the Sandlot #friday
Choking: Chapter 4

Previously …

He turned his back. I heard the spade slice into the premature grave he was digging me. He began singing again, that tuneless drunken croon that always drove me up the wall. Hard, cold clods of earth came sailing in my direction. I was so numb I could barely feel them hitting me. My throat felt shredded; it was still hard to breathe. Someone nearby was moaning; it took me a moment to recognize the hoarse, broken voice as my own. He turned, looked at me, and winked.  I struggled weakly to move my arms and legs.

“Ah-ah-aahhhh, none of that now,” he said, and chucked another spadeful of frozen soil at me. The edge of a rock glinted in the moonlight. I had time to identify it as quartz before it struck me below my eye, gashing me. Blood began to trickle down my cheek and onto my lips; I was almost grateful for the sensation of warmth. My legs moved faster as I tried to bring them up under me. I struggled to push my numb hands against the ground for leverage. A stone or chunk of ice the size of an ostrich egg met my searching hand; cold though it was, it felt like a blazing coal. I began to draw it towards me, praying to Whoever would listen that my fingers would keep their grip. I was only going to get one shot at this.

“Ohhh, goddammit,” he muttered, “never a dull fuckin’ moment. Com’ere, bitch.”

He clambered out of the hole, the spade in one hand; he obviously meant to use it. I dragged my arms under me, and tried to push myself to my knees. But my limbs were too numb, and where they weren’t the muscles felt sprung. I was stuck in a prone position, my only weapon pinned below me—and if I moved I would collapse again. I didn’t know what to do.

He solved the problem by thrusting his fingers into my half-frozen hair and yanking me upright. I gasped, then let out a barking croak in that alien voice. I wondered if I would even have a voice when this was over. Or whether this would ever end. Leave it to a couple of lapsed alcoholics to turn their dream life into a living nightmare. God damn him. And god damn me, too.

He leered down at me. “I told you to stay where youAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGHHH!”

The spade dropped to the snow-covered ground as he clutched himself. A grin bloomed through my pain; I hadn’t missed this time. Bonus: he let go of my hair too, and somehow I managed to stay upright. His knees bent, and I thought he would fall down to my level, but somehow he remained on his feet.

Well, fuck that.

I drew my arm back and let the stone fly with as much force as I had. The effort threw me off balance and I fell back down into the snow—but before I did I had the satisfaction of seeing my missile clock that motherfucker in the side of his head. There was a cracking crunch. He screamed again, then collapsed. Then there was silence.

Okay girl, I thought. Get your ass in gear.

I had no strength. My body felt like it was made of cooked spaghetti. My hands and feet were slabs of frozen meat attached to the rest of me. I could scarcely move my fingers. Despite this I managed to drag my limbs under me, inch by painful inch. From there I succeeded in pushing myself up to my knees. I looked over at him—he was laid out flat, hands and feet twitching a little, but otherwise inert. Good.

I braced myself as best I could, then pulled my left leg up bit by bit, until my shoe was flat against the ground. My other knee stayed planted in the snow.

Now, deep breath, Toots. You only get one shot at this too. If you screw up you’ll get fictionalized on CSI in a couple of months. And they’ll probably get the color of your hair wrong.

Oh, lovely—hypothermia was making me delirious. Joy.

I shook my head a little to clear it. Then I took a deep breath and slowly levered myself up to a standing position. I wobbled a little, but managed to stay on my feet. I stayed rooted there for a second, hardly able to believe I’d managed it. Then my vision began to grey out, and I realized I was still holding the breath I’d taken. I released it with a whoosh and started breathing again, hoping I wouldn’t hyperventilate.

I shuffled one foot forward, then the other. The world swayed a little, but didn’t go out from under me. A hopeful sign.

It began snowing.

I looked down. He still lay there, not even moving now. The left side of his face looked like raw hamburger. His spade was on the ground about a foot away from him. Snow was already starting to adhere to it in big white flakes. And it was so tempting. All I had to do was ease past him and bend over to pick up the spade, and—boom. Instant payback.

Bullshit. What would happen is that I would fall over in the attempt, be unable to get back up this time, and he would come to and find me there. Square one. Fuck that noise.

I turned to go, and then realized I didn’t even know where the everliving fuck I was. I shuffled forward a few feet, then stopped. I didn’t recognize this place—or did I? How long had I been out? How far away from the house had he taken me?

We seemed to be in a clearing somewhere in the woods—which could put us anywhere within a few miles or a few dozen miles of our backyard. I listened for familiar sounds. There was nothing at first—and then I thought I heard the engine of a car, off to the right. I turned in that direction, saw what I thought were headlights through the trees. I turned and staggered in that direction.

Oct 29, 20096 notes
#Choking #Thursday
Nan's Journey - Chapter 4

Previously.

After a most peculiar sensation Nan finds herself lying face down on…

“Blue carpet? Well I wasn’t expecting that.”

She props herself up on her elbows and takes in her new surroundings. Directly in front of her is a futon which is currently formed into a sofa. Luckily, Nan’s head had narrowly missed the wooden plank forming the base of the futon.

“Lucky for you, you mean!”

Above the futon is a cream coloured wall with small, lumpy protrusions covering it. Nan looks slowly around the room. A synthesiser is propped in one corner. The adjoining wall is also lumpy and creamy.

“These walls could really do with some color.”

There are three bookcases against this second wall. Two stand upright at either end with a third lying horizontally between them. Nan regards everything thoroughly, as if looking for clues: video games; a plastic guitar; some magazines; drumsticks atop an odd plastic item; a picture of a bay with sailboats; two Xbox 360 consoles; CD wallets; headphones; wicker box full of cables; a TV; another Xbox 360 console; a picture of trees on a hilltop; plastic drums; books, CDs; comics; a Valentine’s Day card; an amplifier.

“Oh!”

Out of the corner of her eye she spots a figure facing away from her, sitting at a small desk, typing furiously.

“Hello? Um. Nice room you have here. Are your parents home?”

The figure stops typing briefly and turns to face her, a crooked, almost embarrassed smile on his face. He is around forty years old. His longish, once blonde hair dangles around his shoulders. He could really do with a trim. He returns to typing.

“Oh. Sorry. I thought I must be in a teenage boy’s room.”

You sound just like my wife.

Nan freezes. A sudden realisation strikes her.

“You! You’re the voice! The narrator. The …. the … whatever! What the hell is going on?!”

She moves swiftly to stand by the man, who ignores her and keeps typing. Nan looks at his face, then his fingers on the keyboard and then at his monitor.

“Your mouth’s not moving. I hear your words as you type them.” Nan’s voice contains an equal mix of fear and wonder. She backs away slightly.

Relax, Nan. Everything will be fine.

“That’s easy for you to type!”

No, really. It will. Probably.

“Probably? What do you mean probably?! Don’t you know?”

I’m sure it will all work out. No actual harm’s come to you so far, has it?

“Well Mister-I-don’t-know-what’s-going-on, while you work it all out I am going to have a look around.”

She spins dramatically and flounces out of the room.

“That was not a flounce!”

Said Nan as she flounced out of the room.

“Not. Funny!”

Once outside the room Nan pauses to take a few deep breathes and regain her composure. She’s in a hallway which leads to a long staircase on the left and a landing on the right. A white banister provides protection from the hole left by the stairs. The carpet is an orangey-brown colour.

“It’s terracotta”.

What?

“The carpet. This color is terracotta”.

Oh. Okay. Fine. The carpet is a terracotta colour. Nan looks though the first doorway on her right and sees a bathroom with a violety, lilacy, lavendery colour scheme.

“I’d’ve accepted purple.”

Well I’m sure that’ll please Maria.

“Who’s Maria?”

Just someone who got me into a tricky situation. Doesn’t matter. Nan wanders away from the bathroom and looks down the staircase which leads to a large, ornately-tiled foyer.

“Wow. High ceiling.”

It’s an old Victorian house. A question forms on Nan’s lips but she thinks better of it and instead takes a step up to the landing on her right. She briefly glances at the tastefully decorated bedroom in front of her and then notices some wedding photographs on the wall opposite the banister.

“That’s you?! Look how short your hair was! You looked really cute.”

Looked? Thanks. That’s just what my wife said when we were hanging those pictures.

“You’re welcome.”

Nan continues down the landing. There’s a small room with at two-seater sofa in front of her. She opens the last doorway on her right and enters a study decorated in such a way as to fill her with a sense of peace. The study is furnished with a sturdy looking desk and expertly crafted white bookcases fitted with glass doors.

“Ikea?”

Yeah. Ikea.

Nan walks back to the top of the stairs to begin exploring the lower floor.

“Why do I get the feeling that you’re stalling?” she asks.

What do you mean?

“I mean that it’s all well and good you giving me a tour of your home but it doesn’t seem to be doing much in terms of plot progression. There has been no mention of The Custodian or my supposed quest to save whoever it is that I’m meant to save. I have no idea where poor Gianni is. I haven’t seen any blue screens or face-filled shoeboxes. I don’t know what the sight I don’t want to see is. AND I WANT THIS MADNESS TO END!”

Oh. That.

Nan stormed back into the room she’d first appeared in and stood behind the typist with her arms crossed, trying to bore a hole into the back of his head with her eyes.

“Stop stalling! I would like to get back to my nice, normal life if you don’t mind.”

Okay. Er…

An uncomfortable silence develops.

Which is broken suddenly by a twittering noise.

“What was that?”

My mobile. I mean cellphone. Text alert notification.

“It sounds like a bird chirping. Like a Bluejay or something.”

JAY! That’s it! Brilliant, Nan!

Nan, with no clue about what is brilliant, watches as an internet browser opens on the monitor before her and a bookmark to Google Wave is clicked.

“You got on Google Wave? I’ve been trying to get an invite for ages. They’re rarer than Unicorns.”

Nan looks at the titles: TwitterFuWave; TwitterFuTwo; Too Many Cooks – Round 2. Her attention captured, she continues to watch as a small, blurry photograph of a bearded man in a black t-shirt appears on screen. Words form underneath the picture: Nan’s coming your way, Jay.

Nan feels a strange and yet familiar sensation as she is sucked into the monitor and down yet another rabbit hole. The last thing she hears is a huge sigh of relief coming from the long-haired writer.

Oct 28, 200914 notes
#Thursday #Nan's Journey
Autophobia: A Love Story - Chapter 4

Previously.

Warren’s sleep was drenched in dreams of cartoonish technicolor. Yawning mouths smeared with lipstick that dripped like candle wax. Tongues wearing fishnets and shiny tap shoes. Olives soaked in vermouth and gurgling softly with each breath. Twin moles marring an otherwise perfectly smooth inner thigh, like a vampire’s bite. Cascades of faceless feminine hair, blonde, then red, then brown, then black, brown and back again. An anonymous pair of shoulders crowned in the center by a tiny butterfly tattoo with moving wings. A woman in a leather mask, holding a whip casually in her hand and bleeding from her eyes. Two women frantically groping and kissing each other, both covered head to toe in yellow and green bruises. And were they kissing or biting? Warren tried to stop walking but couldn’t; looked down and saw that his legs stopped just below the knee and were bolted to something like roller coaster rails. Click, click after metallic click and he moved slowly but inescapably forward and upward. He opened his mouth to scream. He didn’t make a sound.

Warren’s eyes snapped open. He was face-down on the couch, drooling on the remote. He flipped over. Stared at the ceiling. He ran a hand roughly through his hair and down over his face. Sighed. A nightmare? He didn’t have nightmares. Ever.

“That is the last time I screw a fat chick. Je-sus.”

On TV, a soothing, cultured voice, murmured something eloquently vacuous about the predator/prey relationship between a warthog and a cheetah.

Warren hadn’t felt this crappy since college. Nasty, ripe cottonmouth. Stripes of ache painted across his forehead. He stood up too fast and was assaulted by a moment of stomach-wringing dizziness. He wasn’t used to this. Blank spots in his memory, sure. But his body was in Grade A condition, the product of his will and countless hours with a personal trainer. He wasn’t any kind of health freak, though. No hippie bullshit. He drank wheatgrass juice, sure, but what he liked about those shots was how they burned. How afterward his taste buds felt like they’d been squeezed, and mercilessly.

He dragged himself straight into the shower, without checking the kitchen. He stood under the pounding water for a long time. He was in no hurry.

Sleep had dulled his raging paranoia of the night before. He remembered the baseball bat and laughed a little bit. By the time he got to the kitchen he was something resembling relaxed and ready to go out for breakfast. He was sliding his cell phone into his pocket when he saw it.

A black a white photograph. A close-up of his own face. His eyes were closed. The remote control was tucked loosely under his chin. It was obviously from last night, and it was held to the fridge by the poetry magnets.

float platinum bones
crushed to dust
sweet cherubim afire
that whirling machine
blooms of smoke
make my toxic shroud
yet
I
love
watching
you
sleep


“No.” He said it quietly. He said it again more firmly. “No!” He punched the wall next to him and the plaster cracked. He tore down the photo. It was still clutched in his fist when he fled the apartment, slamming the door behind him. He didn’t bother to lock it.

Oct 27, 200910 notes
Saints Above! - Chapter Four

Previously.

Two weeks later:

A young man was brought in from the local university hospital. He looked fine. That was unusual, because most men who died young came to the Amos Booker Funeral Home with gunshot wounds, multiple traumatic injuries from car or construction accidents, or had an obvious severe health problem such as morbid obesity with a side of lupus. This man, Joe Smith, was a perfect specimen, other than the many scars on his tanned forearms. The scars were so straight and so plentiful one would be excused for the urge to play checkers on his flesh.

Joe’s cause of death was respiratory failure. Ah well, thought Betty, maybe he was a heavy smoker. Betty was the general receptionist, bookkeeper and tender of paperwork at Booker’s. She was pudgy and probably in her sixties, although no one would ever know for sure because she was of the opinion that ladies did not discuss such things as age or health status-the very things she rushed to check on the paperwork when a new client was carted in.

Joe was 32, and left behind a widow along with two elementary school-aged daughters. They were properly distraught and the service was crowded. Joe seemed to have had many friends who came to pay their respects and the funeral was successful for Amos and his business. He was relieved to have one finally come off without a hitch.

The following day, several bodies were brought in; another from the hospital, and two from the county morgue.  The bodies were all men, and again, they were young. The bodies from the morgue were quite beat up. One of them was in his twenties, and the other in his early thirties. They both had obviously had tough lives; both had scars scattered throughout their bodies, and one of them had a couple of scars from gunshot wounds. They looked malnourished, and didn’t seem to have had dental care.

The third body was a man in his early forties. He had many crisscrossing small, straight scars on his hands and forearms. As Amos worked his magic on their appearances, he noticed those little scars. They seemed familiar, but why? Sometimes bodies started to look the same after seeing so many. He dismissed the thought and kept working.

Each day the number of young male bodies brought into the funeral home rose. It was sudden and wonderful. While he didn’t wish harm to anyone, Amos was relieved that he had so many successful services. It made up for the paupers he was burying. The county paid him very little to deal with bodies from the morgue with no kin or insurance. Those burials had a very small profit margin, but Amos hoped it would give him some good will with county officials. Maybe they would throw a little private business his way if he was easy to deal with.

Within a week of the arrival of the first young man’s body, Booker’s was completely overwhelmed. The dead were coming in faster than Amos could prepare them for services. He had to hire a contract worker, and they were still running behind. He had Betty calling around for emergency supplies. The strangest thing was the condition of the bodies. They were 90% men, and nearly all of them were under the age of 50. About a third of them came from the hospital, and the rest from the county morgue. Almost every man had died of respiratory failure, and they continued to vary between very beat up and scarred to those men with the odd forearm slashes.

Finally, Amos received a call from the county coroner. Usually when the coroner’s office called, the caller was a driver or receptionist. Today, it was the woman herself. Dr. Greenwood wanted to let Mr. Booker know that she was fairly certain the bodies were coming in fast and furious due to an outbreak of Legionnaires’ disease. This fact would probably hit newsstands the next day, and she wanted to let him know since he had handled the majority of the bodies related to the outbreak.

Why was that? Why was Booker’s getting all of these bodies? No one knew, exactly, and Amos was afraid to ask, lest he jinx it. As it happened, the men who were brought from the morgue had come from the county jail. The others? Dr. Greenwood explained that with few exceptions, the young men with the crisscrossing scars on their arms were members of Sheet Metal Worker’s Local 387, also known as the tinner’s union. They were working on a huge build out at the county jail, and county health officials including Dr. Greenwood felt that the air conditioning system at the jail was harboring the bacteria.

God works in mysterious ways, thought Amos.

Oct 26, 20097 notes
Week 3 Wrapup

We had our usual twists and turns at the half-way point of all our stories. Three weeks in and just when we think we know what’s going on, those damn writers pull the rugs from beneath us. Three more weeks to go; let’s hope the writers remaining can pick up the pieces.

  • “Saints Above!” - I moved the action back to the heavenly plain where the saints debated the merits of Amos and we learn who St. Sqwirl admires.
  • “Autophobia: A Love Story” - Monkeyfrog took Warren out of his claustrophobic apartment for some wings and PBR. What would he find at the bar and what would be waiting at home?
  • “Nan’s Journey” Maria took Nan all the way through the belly of the whale. But that’s not the only strange conveyance she’ll use in this chapter.
  • “Choking” - Paulos introduces the hero’s attacker to her. We’re still a little in the dark but knowing they know each other makes this dark tale even more gripping.
  • “King of the Sandlot” - Oledoc introduces Billy Joe to the student-athlete’s mortal enemy: the teacher. Will he keep his grades up to play or will he only ever be King of the Sandlot?
Oct 26, 20098 notes
King of the Sandlot--Chapter 3

Previously

He stayed behind, letting the others leave the room. He nervously tried not to look at Miss Henton, and was unable Not to look at her.

Last to leave were Sally Jessup and Paula Lansing, who walked by him, giggled nastily, and started whispering to each other before they got to the hallway. One of them—didn’t matter which, they were interchangeable—cackled out a long, loud laugh. Billy Joe was sure he didn’t like them. He only hoped Suzy didn’t like them either, or that was one dream sunk.

Miss Henton let the door drift closed before sighing and shaking her head. “Sometimes I despair of those two,” she said. “If they paid as much attention to their work as they did to their prattling and gossip, they could be A students.”

She looked sharply at Billy Joe. “You didn’t hear that, by the way.”

He swallowed, but decided to venture a small joke. “Hear what?”

Her mouth quirked up for a second; a nanosmile. “You are a fountain of surprises sometimes, Mr. Danforth. You truly are. Come here. I promise I won’t bite, I just want to talk to you for a moment.”

He edged over to her desk, not really mollified. That swamp-gator expression was still on her face, and she surely looked like she wanted to bite him. But he figured he was safe as long as he didn’t get too close. Then she confounded him by getting up from her chair, circling around her desk, and leaning back against it.

“I’ve been asked about your grades,” she began, “by Coach Willingham. He seems to think you’re quite a good little baseball player.”

Billie Joe’s heart swelled and splashed in his chest; he felt like his eyes were going to pop right out of his skull. And then, just as quickly, his high spirits deflated. He was a good student, not spectacular but average, except in one class. This one. And Miss Henton knew it.

“I get the feeling you know what I’m going to say next,” she said, looking down at him.

He nodded glumly.

“I’ll be blunt, then. Your performance in this class has been less than exemplary, Mr. Danforth. You’ve struggled to keep up—and sometimes you’ve seemed to be struggling to struggle. And it’s having an effect on your grade point average. Now: the policy at this school is that your GPA has to be 2.0 or above in order for you to participate in extracurricular activities such as clubs or sports. (I would like to see them raise it to 2.5 or even 3.0, but that’s just a pipe dream on my part, and a ‘C’ average is certainly nothing to be ashamed of.) Your GPA, as of last quarter, was 2.14—and if your grades in this class continue trending the way they have lately, you’re going to drop to a 1.90, possibly lower. You can imagine how disappointed Coach Willingham was to hear this.”

Oh yeah; he could imagine, all right. If the sensation he had that his stomach had suddenly taken up residence around his ankles was any indication, he could imagine it just fine. “Isn’t there any way we could … I dunno … make an exception?”

Miss Henton narrowed her eyes. “I’ll tell you something, Billie Joe. I am a baseball fan. A Royals fan, in fact. I watch every game I can, and I go to Kansas City two or three times a summer to see games in person. I love to see good players take the field and play their hearts out, from the pro level to AAA ball to college teams right down to the team we field every year here at this school. We have a good team, with a winning record year in and year out, even if we don’t always go to State. It’s a point of pride with me.

“But none of that means a fig to me if I can’t help my students learn. Because that is a point of pride with me as well. Every D or F I write on a test, every failing grade I give, wounds me. Because as much as it’s a judgment of the student’s abilities, it’s also a judgment of mine. Because I couldn’t help them to learn. Do you understand me?”

“I think so,” he replied. In reality he was still trying to grasp the idea that Miss Henton could sometimes be seen in Kauffman Stadium, a hot dog in one hand and a blue Royals pennant in the other, cheering her favorite team.

“Then you’ll understand why I couldn’t make an exception—nor, I think, would Coach Willingham let me do so, even though he might secretly want me to. I couldn’t let myself shortchange your education—not if you were George Brett himself, Mr. Danforth.”

Billie Joe hung his head. Looked like it was back to the field beside the Church next summer. King of the Sandlot was all he would ever be.

Oct 24, 20099 notes
Choking - Chapter 3

Previously.

One day at a time, sweet Jesus. That’s all I’m asking from you. Just give me the strength to do every day what I have to do. Yesterday’s gone sweet Jesus and tomorrow may never be mine. Lord help me today, show me the way. One day at a time.

It was the song we’d chosen for the first dance at our wedding reception. I knew that some people would think it a strange choice. That didn’t matter to us. We’d each been sober for over eighteen months and we both thought it was appropriate. I remember looking into to his eyes, his warm arms holding me close, and starting to really believe that maybe redemption was possible. That maybe, just maybe, someone like me could get a second chance. Could get a new breathe of life.

Do you remember, when you walked among men? Well Jesus you know if you’re looking below it’s worse now than then. Cheating and stealing, violence and crime. So for my sake, teach me to take. One day at a time.

I wondered what had brought that to mind. I hadn’t thought about our wedding day for years. It was something I hadn’t wanted to think about for years. But why was the song so badly out of tune and the words slurred?

Then the present moment crashed in. I felt a pain in my head as though someone had hammered an icepick through my skull. I was lying on rough ground at an odd angle. Some parts of me were numb while others were aching violently.

I managed to force my eyes open. Shades of grey and black moved meaninglessly in front of me. I tried to focus but at first couldn’t make sense of what my blurred vision was showing me. A few feet away I could see the silhouette of … a person? A man? He was the one singing our wedding song.

Oh fuck.

It was him.  He’d found me.

But what had happened to his legs? Why were his legs so short? They looked like they finished at his knees. He continued singing, mangling the tune and the words. He was breathing heavily, exerting himself. What was that scraping sound?

As my eyes adjusted to the light I realised that there was nothing wrong with his legs. He was standing in a hole, with his back towards me. Shovelling earth. Digging my grave. Did he think I was dead? Did it make any difference to him if I wasn’t?

Despite my rising panic I didn’t dare move. I wasn’t even sure if I could’ve moved if I’d wanted to. I just lay there trying to focus through the screaming pain and anxiety.

And then he turned. Slowly.

“Well look who’s back in the land of the living.” He laughed with no trace of humour. The moonlight made his expressionless face look like ash and his eyes were dark, lifeless pits.

“You just lie there, honey.  I’ll be ready for you real soon.”

Oct 22, 20099 notes
#choking #Thursday
Nan's Journey - Chapter 3

Nan and Gianni burst through the blowhole of the whale, wet and shaken but finally in the fresh air. Gianni, being European, still looks rather suave. Nan, however, bears every resemblance to a drowned rat.

“I’m really starting to hate you.”

Nan glares. Her glare, however, is comical, because she has nowhere to direct it.

“Whatever. This is very Lovecraft meets Choose Your Own Adventure meets Charlie Kaufman meets Alice in Wonderland. Very entertaining, yes. But you know what? I’m bored. I want to go home. Or even back to school. I’ve got that hall pass, right?”

Lovecraft? There isn’t much sunlight in Lovecraft.

And suddenly there is a deluge of blinding light, as if they were onstage and someone had turned all the spotlights right on them. Right on Nan and Gianni. The light is painfully bright. Both of them close their eyes in reflex.

Allow me to illuminate things for you, Nan.

“This isn’t funny! Look. I know you know more than you’re telling me. Third person limited my ass. More like omniscient. Except that you’re stupid.”

Now, Nan. Calm down. Did you feel that? Something fell right at your feet. Feel around for it. Pick it up. That’s a good girl. How do you like your new sunglasses? I made them myself. Open your eyes. It’s safe now.

Nan opens her eyes. Just a moment ago she could still feel the pulsing aliveness of the whale beneath her. Now, stretching out before her, plunging downwards thousands of feet, majestic in enormitude and glorious in color, a vista unlike any she’d ev-

“Trees. There are TREES. Jiminy Cricket, but you are tedious. Also I’m pretty sure that enormitude isn’t a word.”

The disembodied voice of the potentially omniscient narrator never wastes words. Words are precious. Like children. Each and every one to be loved and nurtured.

The disembodied voice has feelings too.

Only now does Nan notice that Gianni still hasn’t spoken. She turns and finds him crouched on the floor, eyes still clenched tight against the sunlight. He’s got a broken, wet cigarette in his mouth. Nan stifles a laugh, watching with contempt as he blindly flails his arms about, searching for the lighter that rests mere inches from his frantic fingertips. Just beyond the lighter is another pair of sunglasses. Nan sighs, walks over and kicks both items closer to the foreign exchange student. His fingers close on the lighter and he squeals in joy. He sounds like a happy piglet.

“Piglet? Heh. That’s better. I forgive you. I’ll play. For now.”

In his burning, unbridled excitement at having found the precious lighter, Gianni forgets himself and opens his eyes. Instantly, the sunlight sears his corneas and snaps his pupils shut. Pupils are a sphincter muscle, did you know? Gianni howls in pain, clawing at his face with his hands. He never notices the sunglasses.

Nan may think he’s a creeper, but she’s a nice girl. Aren’t you, Nan? She can’t stand to see anyone suffer. So she goes over to Gianni. Pushes the sunglasses into his hands, and tries to comfort him the only way she knows how, with soft cooing sounds, the same ones she used the day her cat had kittens. Animal midwifery, she thinks, would be easier and more rewarding. Eventually his whimpers subside. He wraps his arms around his own torso, like he’s giving himself a hug. He stares at her, apparently lovestruck.

“Ew. Must you?”

Now that Mr. Macho man has gotten his Winnie the Pooh band-aid, Nan has a chance to really study her surroundings. Because she still doesn’t know where she is or what’s going on or who is the “we” in the note. Who is the “we” who needs her (and only her) help? She’s not sure she really cares. Except that she now suspects that the only way she’ll ever get home is by following this manic dream to its end. There’s a cave at the other end of the rock platform. She has to explore it.

“Gianni? Did you hear that? No? OK. The disembodied voice says I have to explore that cave. So I gotta go. Will you be alright here by yourself?

“You save my life. My soul. I am. How you say? I am for you.”

“Uh. Yeah. Just wait here. Try not to fall off the edge of the rock.” 

“My angel. Ciao, bella.”

The cave is very shallow. Nan reaches the far end in under two minutes. It’s dark in the cave so she takes off her sunglasses. What she sees is completely unfamiliar. Something she’s never seen before. She can hardly even fathom what purpos-

“I know what it is! It’s a blue screen. You film someone in it and then put in whatever background you like. Do you have any idea how many times I’ve watched the making-of documentary on the Lord of the Rings DVDs? It’s like you don’t know anything about me. How did you even get this job?”

Behind her bravado, Nan is frightened.

“Am not!”

Are too.

She gulps. This is getting curiouser and curiouser indeed. The air starts to feel heavy. Dreadful, in the literal sense of the word.

“Stop telling me how I feel. You don’t know me!”

Muted, as if far off, she hears voices. A lot of voices. A crowd. Are they screaming? And what are they doing in that shoe box?

“Shoe box? What? I don’t hear anything.”

But she strains to listen and yes! She does hear something. It’s getting less and less faint. Closer and closer. And suddenly the source of the sound becomes apparent. It’s coming from what looks like a small TV. When did that get here? But when she approaches it and looks in the screen, she realizes it’s not a TV at all. It’s a monitor. The kind you’d find on a movie set. In it? All the way on the right she can see herself. She waves. Yep. Definitely her. Definitely live. All the way on the left, is a huge shoe box. She looks up from the monitor, over to where the shoe box should be. But there’s nothing there. She looks back. She squints to see better. She leans forward, forward. She doesn’t even notice when her head begins to pass through the glass. Is that movement in the shoe box? Why is the blue screen shimmering?

And then, all in the same instant, three things happen. She sees faces in the shoe box, faces she recognizes. The blue screen arranges itself into an all-too-familiar image, a sight she has seen many times and a sight she could happily never see again. Most fantastic of all, her feet leave the ground, following the rest of her as she tumbles headfirst into the world on the other side of the monitor.

Oct 22, 200912 notes
#Wednesday #Nan's Journey
Autophobia: A Love Story – Chapter 3

Previously

“Holy shit.”

With a sharp intake of air, Warren dropped the bag of peas. His knees were wobbly, and his stomach started to flip. He felt a little outside of himself, and started to yell, even though he was still alone.

“Seriously? What, are you watching me? Is this a fucking joke to you? Where is the webcam?”

He furiously ripped the kitchen apart. Ignoring the back pain that brought him to the freezer, he left the peas on the floor where he dropped them and rifled through every item on every flat surface that could hide a camera. Freaking him out wouldn’t be any fun if she couldn’t watch. There had to be a camera somewhere.

The kitchen was a disaster. He felt like he was becoming irrational. He mixed up the poem magnets and put two of them side by side.

stick it

“Screw this.” He grabbed a beer and left the kitchen mess for later. He left the peas as well. He limped into the living room and sank into the couch, flipping channels and trying desperately to ignore his situation.

Once Warren finished downing the beer, he got up to take a shower. He turned on the water, and then checked every room in the apartment in an attempt to convince himself he was alone. He could easily have dozed off again, but he needed to get the hell out of his suddenly claustrophobic home. He took another beer in the shower with him.

He quickly donned his dive bar jeans and ironic t-shirt along with his work boots that had never seen work. He threw a flannel shirt on over the tee, checked all the rooms one more time, and headed out. He looked around the hallway as he locked the new deadbolt and left the building.  A stylish, middle-aged woman with too much makeup gave him nasty look as he hit the sidewalk, probably because he was so busy shiftily looking around the building entrance he damned near walked into her.

He saw no one strange as he left, and definitely no Trish or Reneé. He walked down the street, enjoying the change in leaf color highlighted by the streetlights, and feeling cautiously optimistic. There was no camera in the kitchen, there were no people hiding in the apartment, and he didn’t see anyone on his way out. All of that combined with the deadbolt installation had him hoping this stupid prank was in the past.

Three blocks later, he arrived at the local dive. Warren ordered PBR and chicken wings. He suddenly realized he hadn’t eaten since breakfast, and the fear-based adrenaline was wearing off, leaving him tired and shaky. He took his beer and wings from the bar and sat in the back corner booth. Optimism or not, he was keeping an eye on the door.

After a few beers and his basket of wings, the bar started to fill with locals. He began to feel more relaxed, and strolled back to the polished, ancient bar to mingle. He knew more than half of the men and women here, and it was a relief to be amongst acquaintances just hanging out, watching a game on the TV and flirting in the same old routine.

“Hey baby, how you doin?”

“Gooood! How you doin?”

This was always followed by the requisite smirky laugh and usually an offer to buy a drink. The place was crowded early, and very loud. Warren had at least six beers in addition to the few at home, and after the long, stressful day, he figured he better walk home before he lost the ability to find his way. It was too chilly to pass out in an alley tonight.

He was so buoyed by the evening he found himself whistling while he weaved his way home. He was alone tonight. He’d had his fill of partners, at least for a few days. He was still whistling when he got to his door, and he nearly giggled when the deadbolt popped with the turn of his key. No one had been in the apartment, or that lock would have been open.

Warren walked through the door and flipped on the light simultaneously. He immediately turned to lock the deadbolt. He walked into the kitchen and dropped his keys on the table. He grabbed some water and ibuprofen to head off a morning hangover, and surveyed the mess he had left. Seeing the disorder reminded him to check the fridge.

how were the wings

“Fuck.” He shuddered. She wasn’t even bothering with poetry any more. How the hell did she get in and out? He ran with a stumble to the window in the bedroom. The window outside which the fire escape was anchored. It was locked. He was starting to panic now, and checked all the windows. Every one was locked. The door was locked. He kicked the bedroom door so hard it bounced back and almost caught his arm as it slammed shut.

He was enraged with fear. Warren was not a guy who was in touch with his emotions. He didn’t allow himself to experience fear or vulnerability. He went straight to fury. He stomped into the bathroom to relieve himself of the last couple of beers. Nothing was out of place in the bathroom. He looked at his reflection in the mirror. He had never looked more like a cornered animal.

“Jesus Christ, Warren. Get a grip! You’re acting like a fucking woman.”  He was yelling aloud again. He refilled his water glass and decided he would sleep on the couch. He turned the television on for company and a little light. He wasn’t afraid. He just wanted to have the company. No, he wasn’t afraid at all. He just wanted to keep an eye on the door. The bat was under the edge of the couch, but that was for self-defense. Anyone would make sure they had a defense. What if Reneé had an accomplice? But he wasn’t scared. He was just smart. Right?

Oct 20, 20097 notes
Saints Above! - Chapter Three

Previously…

Time on the eternal plane, being eternal, operates quite differently. It doesn’t flow like a river; it’s more like a big resort pool. Everyone swims through it, diving, surfacing, wading in the shallow end and hanging out by the tiki bar. The grammar of the pre-mortem plane can’t really describe the situation, but in an effort to illuminate, you should know that in the time it’s taken Charlotte Brontë to put up a kettle for a spot of tea, Richard Feynman has spent twenty lifetimes drawing arrows, ranting about positrons and electrons. He has also tried to draw Einstein into deep philosophical discussions about time, entropy, and the nature of the eternal, but the old violinist is more interested in playing dice with the boss.

While Amos waited for the 911 operator, St. Dismas pulled up his file on the Interworld font, St. Joseph got drinks from the tiki bar, and St. Sqwirl got three falafel from Isaac and Ishmael’s cart. They sat down to their repast and reviewed Amos’ life.

The first note in the file regarded his accountant, Max. St. Sqwirl pulled up Max’s file and read, “Having absconded to Rio with most of Amos’ savings, he lived a life of luxury and dissipation.”

“Well that’s not fair, is it? He worked hard for years, building a good business for himself and his community and now he’s on the verge of losing it all…” St. Joseph took a melodramatically long pause before concluding pointedly, “thanks to a thief.”

St. Dismas narrowed his eyes and glared at St. Joseph. “Sure. That’s terrible. Of course that Honda is the final straw, isn’t it? Made of metal, if I’m not mistaken. A good bit of tin-smithing involved in the construction, I’d warrant.”

St. Sqwirl rolled his chair between the two rivals before they came to blows. He continued reading, “It was only fitting that his guilt made every morsel of food and drop of drink taste of formaldehyde.”

“It doesn’t say that,” countered St. Joseph.

St. Sqwirl of Coyote touched the stream. “It does now.”

The only thing St. Sqwirl found funnier than Monty Python and Nipsey Russell was a touch of gallows humour. As for Nipsey Russell, in obscure saints as in mortals, there is little accounting for taste and St. Sqwrl had a weakness for verse.

He touched the file and changed the topic, “Let’s talk to some references.”

Mildred Pennypacker died after a long illness. “My hair was so thick it made all the girls jealous. But it became brittle and grey while I was on my deathbed. Mr. Booker dyed and conditioned it before laying me to rest. And he kept it down, spreading it out on the pillow so it looked like a halo. He was very gentle with me.” The saints nodded in approval as Mrs. Pennypacker sang Amos’ praises.

Dozens more of Amos’ patrons sang his praises, in three-part harmony with angels backing them on harp and lute. The saints met only one of the dearly departed who had a bad thing to say about Amos but the poor man couldn’t be blamed for his cooling system’s failure: “I thought I was on my way to…the other place. It was August and no air. That’s no way to treat the dead! I wouldn’t use him again, I can guarantee that.”

The three saints agreed that Amos Booker was their man. If they were to have written a form by which to choose, Amos’s would have every box checked as, “Strongly Agree,” excepting those where the more appropriate choice would be, “Strongly Disagree.” St. Dismas let the call come through the font.

***

“Hello. Please state the nature of your existential emergency.”

Oct 19, 20099 notes
#Saints Above! #monday
Week 2 Wrapup

Hey all! Well, we have a new writer thrown into the mix, and we have a new crop of stories to keep us going. Let’s see where we stand:

(Note: individual story titles link to the most recent chapter.)

“Saints Above!“-I feel bad because I took Paul’s lovely whimsical tone and coarsened it somewhat, but I hope he’ll forgive me. Now St. Sqwirl has a challenge waiting for him in his chapter.

“Autophobia: A Love Story“—Warren, you dog! coyotesqrl’s second chapter to my story deepens the mystery, adds some conflict, and leads me to wonder if Warren is ever going to be able to leave the apartment again. We’ll see what monkeyfrog does with—or to—him next week.

“Nan’s Journey“—Meta meets its match in this week’s chapter, as Nan’s narrating nemesis takes her for a ride down the rabbit hole—or more accurately, out the blowhole, courtesy of monkeyfrog. Where she lands is up to Maria.

“Choking“—Maria’s asphyxiative second chapter gives our narrator her memory back—though whether she actually wants to remember this is another matter. But there’s more to the story, so check out Paul’s chapter next Thursday.

“King of the Sandlot“—Billy Joe’s story continues, as everyone wonders what he dropped off the Tallahatchee Bridge—oh, sorry. Wrong story. My bad. Seriously, I wonder what Billy’s teahcer wants to see him about. I guess it’s up to me to find out this Friday.

***

This is shaping up to be a fun story cycle. Hope you stick with us all the way through!

Oct 18, 200911 notes
King of the Sandlot - Chapter 2

Previously.

This was the moment he had been waiting for. Or at least he hoped it would be. The rubber game had been a titanic battle. A classic. The teams were well matched with not more than a racoon’s whisker to choose between them. The lead pitcher had injured his arm which meant that Billy Joe had the chance to be the hero. And now? Now it was the bottom of the ninth with Billy Joe’s team leading by a single run. Two outs. Two strikes. Three balls. Bases loaded.

Billy Joe stood on the pitcher’s mound, thinking about all the great pitchers who had gone before him, knowing that he had the opportunity to earn a legendary nickname, like “Cyclone” or “Chief”. The noise of the crowd grew louder and louder and he could hear the supporters chanting his name over and over and over. This. This was the moment he had been waiting for.

“BILLY JOE DANFORTH!”

He was jolted out of his daydream by his math teacher, Miss Henton. Daddy always said she looked like a gator who’d swallowed a wasp, with a temper and a voice to match. Billy did his best to look calm and searched his mind, trying to remember anything from the lesson that could save him.

“Well Mr. Danforth? Do you have an answer for us?” she asked, her narrow, grey eyes boring into him.

“Er…” They were doing geometry. She’d said something about angles. There was a shape on the blackboard that Miss Henton was pointing at. “Isosceles, Miss Henton?” he guessed.

Her already narrow eyes seemed to become mere slits, making her look more like a reptile than ever, and Billy Joe steeled himself for the tongue-lashing he felt sure was coming. But it didn’t come. Instead she nodded. Real slow. Her unblinking eyes never breaking contact with his. He could’ve sworn that she even made a strange hissing noise.

“Isosceles.” She sure sounded like some sort of reptile to Billy Joe. “Correct. Perhaps there is more going on in that freckled head of yours than is readily apparent.”

His classmates’ laughter died before it had really started as Miss Henton’s gaze took in every student at once, instantly bringing the room to perfect silence. Billy Joe was sure that she was disappointed he’d got the right answer. But boy was he relieved.

He somehow managed to pay attention for the rest of the lesson. It wasn’t easy though. Not when there were so many images of shapes and angels on the blackboard that kept reminding him of the baseball field, of hitting the winning homer, of pitching the perfect curve ball. He had to concentrate real hard to not spend the rest of the time imagining himself becoming one of the greats in the Baseball Hall of Fame.

Of course the other thing that didn’t help his concentration was sitting two seats down and one to the left. Suzy Anderson. Her mousey-blonde hair spilled over her shoulders and Billy Joe found himself wishing she’d turn round so her he could see her pretty green eyes and button nose. And that smile. He wasn’t even sure if she knew he existed. He had sure noticed her the first day of school though. He’d never really paid much mind to girls before but for some reason he found himself quite taken with Suzy.

He forced himself back to his books and worked on the exercise Miss Henton had set, only stealing the occasional glance at Suzy when he was sure no-one would notice.

Eventually the bell rang and the students stuffed their things into bags and headed out the door. As Billy Joe got to the front of the class Miss Henton called to him. “Oh, Mr. Danforth? A moment of your time if I may.”

Oct 16, 20099 notes
#King of the Sandlot #Friday
Choking - Chapter 2

Previously…

His hands squeezed tight. I could feel the rough callouses on his palms. His fingertips digging into the sides of my neck. His thumb against my windpipe. I couldn’t breathe so I couldn’t scream. My fuzzy drunk brain did not want to accept this. This is not happening, I thought. Over and over and over. I closed my eyes and willed myself to wake up from this nightmare. His rancid breath hit me in the face and my panic raged. It was real. I was losing vision. The world was closing in, like I was looking through a tunnel. The light got dimmer and dimmer, my head and chest were ready to burst and my instincts took over. I needed air. I bent my knees, and with my last fucking drop of strength I threw my weight backwards as hard as I could. I wrenched away from him and for a moment he lost his grip on my neck. Air, air! Once, twice, I sucked in as much air as possible. My throat, oh God my throat hurts. Sharp pain. Did he crush something? With my third breath I tried to scream but he cut me off, grabbing my neck again, throwing me against the wall. He pushed me up and my feet left the ground. I looked at his face and all I saw was hate. Sweet Jesus, I thought. He actually wants to kill me. He actually wants to kill me. He’ll feel bad in the morning for sure but it won’t matter because I’ll be fucking dead.

I tried to hit him and did, but he didn’t seem to feel it. He didn’t even flinch. Bile rose in my throat. I was going to be sick. I grabbed his shoulder, willing my hand to hold my weight, just for a second, while I raised my knee and oh shit! I was aiming for his balls but missed. My knee landed in his stomach and his hands slipped. I sucked in another painful breath. Don’t puke don’t puke don’t puke. But it was too late, and an enormous, violent wave of slosh, beer and the half digested chicken wings, nuclear, came flying out of my mouth. I projectile vomited right in his face. Right in his eyes. He dropped me.

I ran. I ran to the kitchen. I heard him behind me, spluttering and swearing, “You crazy bitch! I’m going to kill you now for sure.”

I didn’t feel drunk anymore. I flung the door open and jumped down the steps, missing the last two and crashing into the cast iron railing with my elbow and biting down hard, barely missing my tongue. My jaw, my head. My elbow. Fuck. Searing pain in my mouth. Broken tooth. So what. Don’t stop.

I made it to the end of the driveway. I dared to look back. I couldn’t help it. He stood on the porch. The light was on him. I could see him but he could he see me? He was shaking his head and rubbing his face like his eyes hurt. The screen door behind him flapped in the wind. “You stupid fucking cunt,” he screamed. And then he picked up the snow shovel.

Terror slapped me hard across the face. My mind cleared. Instantly. I ran. The street was full of slippery slush, and I almost fell but caught myself, sliding into a parked car. I felt no pain. All I felt was the asphalt under my feet. The air in my nostrils was so cold it burned. My tears froze on my face.

I left the road, tearing across lawns, trying not to fall. I couldn’t waste a second. I didn’t hear him anymore but that didn’t mean anything. He was there and he was coming for me like something out of a bad horror movie. He had a goddamn snow shovel.

I didn’t stop until I reached the deserted parking lot behind the high school. Two miles away. I hid behind a dumpster, in the shadows. My clothes were soaked with sweat, and the sweat was starting to freeze. There was vomit all over my arms and hands. I took off my gloves, picked up a handful of snow and tried to wash out my mouth. My muscles felt like jelly. The adrenaline was leaving, sowing the fields with salt as it retreated. The pain - in my elbow, in my mouth, in my neck - it was all coming back. I sat down in the snow. Great. Fucking great. I was going to freeze to death.

I was dizzy and nauseated and suddenly more tired than I’d ever been in my life. I shook my head.  I looked up at the sky. The moon was so bright I had to close my eyes. And then I passed out, falling face-first into a snow drift.

Oct 16, 200910 notes
#Thursday #Choking
Nan's Journey - Chapter 2

Previously…

Nan awoke thanks to an insistent knocking.

“There you go again. I wasn’t sleeping, I was just resting my eyes for a minute.”

Whatever you say…do you hear the knocking or don’t you?

“I hear it.”

She stumbles around in the dark, slipping and sliding a bit in the damp. She pulls her shirt up over her nose in a futile attempt to block out the fishy funk in the air. Hydroplaning on her Chucks, she slides into the side of a grand piano. The knocking seems to be coming from under the huge lid. Without warning, a torch lights on the wall as she feels for the edge of the piano top.

“Thanks for the light. Can you do something about the smell?”

You are in the belly of the whale. It is going to smell. Get used to it.

“Ugh.” Nan drops the shirt off of her nose in defeat and works to pry the piano top open. Her backpack keeps sliding down one shoulder and then the other, so she takes it off and sets it on the piano bench.

“Quit your knocking! This lid is heavy. I’m doing the best I can!”

There is a muffled response to Nan’s shout. It is unintelligible.

Finally, she finds the hinges on the lid, moves to the opposite end of the piano and with an upward thrust the lid springs open. With a cacophony of terrible piano string combinations, a dark-haired head pops up.

“Gah. Thank you! I’ve been in there for so long, just knocking in despair.”

The boy is slim, with black hair, dark eyes, and exotic olive skin. He looks like a beautiful teenage boy, with a musical accent from a land of…

“Oh jeez. Do you really have to be so melodramatic? He is Gianni, the weird Italian exchange student. I have him in my Spanish class.” Nan rolls her eyes.

Well he is attractive, and he does have an accent.

“Hey, I am not the boy of weird,” blurts Gianni.

“I’m tired of this conversation. Who put you in the piano, Gianni?” Nan tries to hide her irritation, but it isn’t easy between the narrating clown and the weird exchange student, both of whom are getting on her nerves.

“I don’t know, but I think it had skin of snake and big teeth. I was afraid to come out! What is that smell?”

Gianni is clearly not a genius. He is, however, frightened and very handsome. He is not altogether fluent in English.

“How long have you been here? How did you get here? Do you know how to get out? I’m tired of standing around. If we don’t get back to class we’ll be marked as truant. I do not need my mom grounding me again.”

Gianni looks at his feet and shrugs. “I do not know the answers to what you are asking me, Nan. What is truant?”

The boy looks like he is hiding something. He is not very good at it.

“I don’t have time for this nonsense.” Nan is thoroughly disgusted. She picks up her backpack and pulls it on. “Let’s just find our way out of this whale belly or whatever it is.” She turns and starts marching off the way she came.

You know you never get through the challenge by going backwards, don’t you? I thought you were in AP classes, Nan. With this narrative gem, she stops in her tracks. She begins to realize she is really here in this mess, and it is going to be up to her to figure out how to get out of it.

Nan pulls out the note she had stuffed in her pocket earlier. “Music room, 3pm. You’re the only one who can save us.” She held the note out to Gianni. “Do you know who wrote this?”

“No, I do not know. Who are we to save?”

“I don’t know who we’re supposed to save. I don’t know who wrote the note. I honestly don’t know what the hell is going on. But if my AP Lit class has taught me anything, it is that we better start walking, so we can find out what is going on. Let’s go.” Nan starts walking past the piano and into the dark, avoiding puddles even though her shoes are slimy and soaked already.

Suddenly, the pair hears a rumbling coming toward them from behind, and the surface beneath their feet begins to roll. They fall down, and the surface wave keeps going.

“What was that?” For once, they were in unison.

Peristalsis. That was peristalsis.

“You mean…oh. That’s just disgusting.” Nan stands up and gives Gianni the hand. “Don’t you dare ask what that means. You don’t even want to know.”

They continue walking. Gianni fumbles around in his pocket, and pulls out a pack of cigarettes. “Do you have a light?”

“You smoke? Yuck! Of course I don’t have a light. I don’t smoke. Smoking kills and it stinks before that.” Nan is a real smoke hater.

“I’m Italian. We all smoke. It is the pastime of our country. Americans are so uptight.”

Nan’s toe kicks into something that makes a skittering sound. She jumps. Feeling around with her hands, she grabs a small, metallic item. She feels it and turns it in her hands.

“Are you kidding me? You made a freaking lighter appear now?”

Gianni needs it, Nan.

“You are more than a narrator. I don’t care what you say.” Nan flicks the lighter and resentfully lights Gianni’s cigarette. The lighter is made of a silver metal, and has an ornate decoration on it. In the midst of all the curls and fuss carved into the metal is an initial. The letter Q.

Before they walk another ten steps, an ill wind blows. Ill with the funk with of fish. The wind gets stronger and stronger and with a sudden gust our intrepid travelers are knocked off of their feet and fly through the air.

With a loud sneeze, they shoot out of the blowhole.

Oct 14, 200916 notes
#wednesday #nan's journey
Autophobia: A Love Story - Chapter 2

Previously…

The buzzer broke the silence. He looked at the clock on the microwave as he walked to the door and was surprised only 40 minutes had passed since calling the locksmith. “Hello?”

“It’s Trish from A-One Locks. We spoke on the phone.”

Warren punched the button and flipped on a few lights. It was only 5:30 but the apartment was already getting dark. He used to hate when the days grew shorter when he was a kid; early evenings meant less time playing street hockey or baseball and more time in the apartment he shared with his grandmother. However, as he’d grown older he’d become more of a night owl. Nighttime was his playtime now. He heard a light rap at the door.

As he opened the door he was hit by an olfactory blast. Machine oil mixed with baby powder mixed with Shalimar. After the airborne assault had softened him up, she pushed through into the apartment and established a beachhead by the door. She wasn’t much too behold … actually she was a lot to behold. Short and dusky with kinky hair and shiny skin, her blue workshirt strained against her prodigious assets. Her pants were similarly stretched to their limit. She reminded Warren of Violet Beauregard right after she’d chewed her gum all the way to dessert and he smirked to himself.

“Hope you didn’t wait too long. I got here quick as I could.”

“No, this is great. I thought it was going to be a few hours.”

She winked at him with the biggest false eyelashes Warren had ever seen. “Murray, that’s my husband, he was on another job and said he wouldn’t make it here for a coupla three hours. You was so nice on the phone I couldn’t leave you to wait. So I closed up the shop and got right over myself. What’s the trouble?”

Warren told Trish a version of the truth: that he was worried an ex-girlfriend had made a copy of his keys and was going to break in and vandalize the place when he wasn’t home. She said a new deadbolt would ease his mind and wouldn’t take long at all to install. She had one down in her truck and would run down to get it. She actually jogged out the door and down the hall, her body jiggling like a water balloon.

Warren got a beer from the fridge and turned on the TV in time to see Alex Trebek smugly reading the answer off his prompter to a kid in a Princeton sweatshirt. He flipped over to ESPN to get the Irish score and watch whatever second-tier west coast teams were duking it out and hoped the lock wouldn’t take too long. He was getting hungry and wanted to hit the bar for sustenance before starting the evening’s hunt.

“Got it!” She was out of breath and her hair was wet with sweat and sticking to her face but she beamed with such pride, Warren smiled despite himself. She really shouldn’t run like that; she’d give herself a heart attack. He took a pull on his beer and watched as she got to work removing the old padlock. She turned and caught him watching her; she smiled coyly. She was pushing 50 and was a hundred pounds overweight but she was flirting with him! He had to admire her confidence.

He turned back to the TV as they returned from commercial and saw the blue turf of Boise; he clicked it off. “How’s that lock coming?” He turned as he spoke and was surprised to find himself staring at the locksmith’s belt buckle. She walked around to the front of the couch and he craned his head up to look her in the eyes.

“All done. Like I said, it wasn’t nothing to it. Here are your keys.” She held the keys above his hand high enough he had to stretch for them. He couldn’t get to his feet because she was standing right in front of him; he reached up and she pulled the keys back. What the hell? he thought. She’s playing keep-away, now? She took a step back and Warren started to stand up. Half-way to his feet and off balance, she pushed him in the chest, back down onto the couch. She jumped on his lap and started kissing him.

“What the hell are you doing?” He blurted out as he tried to squirm out from beneath her.

“I seen you watching me. I know what you want.” She grabbed his head and pulled his face into her bosom. Garlic and sweet sweat mingled with her perfume and tickled his nose. He tried to shake her off but couldn’t move her bulk.

“You sounded so lonely on the phone, like me. I … my Murray’s a good provider but he don’t know how to treat a woman. I ain’t been with a man knows what a woman wants in a long time. I bet you do, though.”

She thrust her hand down and took hold of him. Despite himself, he was already at half-mast and rising. She squeezed and leaned in to kiss him again. Her lips were soft and her tongue darted quickly into his mouth and … What am I doing? She’s old enough to be my mother. But she’s so hungry for it; what harm could it do?

Warren wrapped his hands around Trish and threw himself on top of her. She looked up at him, anxiously. He kissed her passionately.

***

He woke with a start when the dining room light hit his lidded eyes. “Where are you going?” he asked as she eclipsed the light.

“Got to get Murray’s dinner on the table before he gets home. Keys are on the table, no charge.” She paused a long second, “You want me to keep one?”

***

He got up a few hours later with a sore back and rug burns on his knees and elbows. She’d left both keys on the table like he’d asked. He didn’t mean to upset her but this was just a one-time thing. He grabbed a bag of frozen peas from the freezer to put on his back and that’s when he saw the poem:

scorching animal drama
unjust abduction
burning abyss
your essence abandoned
wet radiating in her

Oct 13, 20099 notes
#Tuesday #Autophobia: A Love Story
Saints Above! --Chapter Two

Previously…

Death, thought Amos Booker, is not a happy business any more.

He looked out his office window. Outside mourners in black wiped their eyes and clung to each other, as sweating and huffing pallbearers carried an oversized coffin out to a waiting hearse. He reminded himself to take the hearse in tomorrow and have the shocks and struts checked. (The guy was that heavy.) And then to wonder how in hell he was going to pay for the repairs.

The undertaker drew a heavy sigh. Then he turned away and returned to his desk, where he steadfastly tried to ignore the rows of red numbers glaring from his monitor. Damn Max anyway. He was sitting pretty on a beach in some South American country with no extradition treaty, the bastard, three-quarters of a mill in the black. Meanwhile Amos, who’d started the business, then worked his ass off to get it up and running and keep it there, was stuck in a tiny office with dingy walls he couldn’t afford to repaint, still busting his buns twenty years down the road because he hadn’t had the foresight to check every so often and make sure his accountant wasn’t embezzling from him. Tens of thousands in legal fees later, Max was still living it up and Amos was inching closer and closer to the poorhouse.

And then the coolers—installed by a contractor who made money by cutting corners—had gone belly up last spring. It had cost Amos thousands more to install a new refrigeration system, and to arrange to store bodies at a rival funeral home and the town morgue, before disaster struck. the insurance company was sticking on the cost; it was still in arbitration. And then, in the midst of it all that confusion and madness, he’d let his mortician’s license lapse. The city had shut him down for a full month while he waded through the red tape, paid fines (more money in the toilet), and had himself reinstated. And here he was, in autumn, business down, reputation in ruins, finances practically nonexistent, his wife alienated by the long tense hours he suddenly had to work again and threatening to divorce him, his kids no longer sure he lived in their house, creditors on his tail, his life as crazy as a soup sandwich. He felt like he was dancing on the edge of a razor blade, and someone kept throwing banana peels at his feet.

Amos scrubbed at his eyes, and forced himself to look at the screen. There had to be a way out of this, Had to be. If he didn’t find one, it was good-bye Charlie. Everything he’d worked for over the last twenty years would fall apart. His mortgage. His car payments—not to mention his wife’s car payments. His retirement. His kids’ education—Sam was going to be sixteen next year, Lara twelve, and neither one had the slightest inkling that applying for financial aid might be in their future. Or that applying for food stamps might be in their parents’. Amos hoped they never had to find out. But if he didn’t find a survivable route through this jungle of lawyers and interest and debts (oh my), then find out they would. So he steeled himself and dove into the numbers for that day’s round of financial juggling.

He had only just gotten into the tangle of digits when suddenly there was a loud screeching noise outside, followed by an explosive crash.

“What. The. Hell?” Amos muttered. But he felt the blood draining out of his face because even as he rose from his chair and went back to the window, he knew. He knew.

Outside was chaos. His hearse—a 2006 Ford with thousands left on it in payments—had been t-boned toward the front end while turning left by some dork in a red Honda, who apparently didn’t know or didn’t care that funeral processions had the right of way, especially when they were just leaving the goddamn funeral home with cars full of mourners in tow. Instead the dork had plowed into the hearse hard enough to slew the front end around, crumple the trunk, shatter the driver’s window, spiderweb the windshield, and effectively destroy the engine. The only fortunate aspect of this mess was that thre rear door had stayed secure—and in any event the guy in the coffin had been too heavy to be knocked around by the accident, so at least the mourners had been spared the sight of Uncle Moe spilled onto the street like a half-empty beer bottle.

Meanwhile the dork had gotten out of his Honda—the front end of which looked like it had lost an argument with God—and was woozily approaching the hearse. His airbag had blown, and as a result his face was covered with white powder. That, combined with what the airbag had done to his hair, and the way he was gesticulating at Mark, the hearse driver, made him look like a drunken mime after a windstorm. Mike, meanwhile, was fumbling with the driver’s side door, trying to get it open. The door however was damaged too badly; Mark finally had to ease across the seat, open the passenger door, and pull himself to his feet. His face was cut in three or four places. His scalp was bleeding. He was wobbling on his feet, and had to steady himself against the roof of the hearse.

None of this cut any ice with Mr. Honda Dork, who was pointing his finger and shouting at Mark. They were far enough away that Amos could hear maybe one word in every six, but from the tone he decided that it was not going well, and that the Honda driver was drunk or crazy or both. Mark was trying to talk him down, but it was clear his words were having no effect. And the mourners were just now starting to emerge from their cars, most of them with slowly dawning anger on their faces. From five hundred yards away, Amos could feel the situation building, like an approaching stormfront, night-black clouds pregnant with rain and disaster.

And then the storm broke. Mr. Honda roared something, then charged around the front end of the hearse and slugged Mark in the side of his bleeding head. And the mourners rushed in on them both all at once. Within seconds there was a Donnybrook in the middle of Hudson Street. Amos groaned, massaged his forehead above his right eye, where he could feel the migraine starting, and went to his desk to call the police.

“God help me,” he muttered, as he dialed 911. “God help me. You’re the only one who can.”

***

“Hul-lo,” St. Dismas said as an image swirled to life on the Interworld font. “I think we have our supplicant.”

Oct 12, 20099 notes
#Saints Above! #monday
Weekly Wrapup - Round 2, Week 1.

Hi folks.

Paulos here to serve you the summary of the start of our second stories.

I began the week with Saints Above! I wanted to try something a bit more upbeat so I figured that writing about death was the thing to do. It was an idea that had been lurking in the back of my mind for a while and it just had to come out.

Oledoc gave us Autophobia: A Love Story.  I have a feeling this could get decidedly creepy.

Nan’s Journey from Cototesqrl brings us some high-concept hackery.  Bastardo!

Monkeyfrog makes her breathtaking TMC debut with Choking.  Wonderful to have Cary join us.

And our final story, posted just moments ago, is Piscesinpurple’s King of the Sandlot. A tale of hopes and dreams which I’ll be continuing on Friday. Just one question: what’s baseball?

So, five very different tales. I hope you’re looking foward to seeing what comes next as much as I am.

AND NOT ONLY THAT!

We also have the long-awaited final chapter of Maria’s Night Vision.

Oct 12, 20096 notes
#week 1 wrapup
King of the Sandlot

Billy Joe Danforth had his heart set on baseball ever since the 2001 All-Star game, when he witnessed Alex Rodriguez offer his place to Cal Ripken. As the crowd went wild, stood up in ovation, Daddy turned to him and said, “Now you see that, son? That is respect.” Then he upended his can of beer, sucked it down in one noisy slurp and got up and went to the kitchen to get another. Also to hide his moist eyes. He never cried in front of Billy Joe, not even that time he lost the tip of his middle finger to the threshing machine.

The glove Daddy gave Billy Joe was old and worn. It had belonged to some cousin, he wasn’t even sure which one, but that was OK because Billy Joe was used to hand-me-downs. And, like Daddy said, who wants a stiff new glove anyway? This glove was broken in just right. The leather was well softened and when he flexed his hand the glove moved right along with his fingers. That first day they played catch for hours. Daddy could throw all right but they didn’t have a bat. It didn’t matter. Billy Joe was happy.

Momma watched them from the kitchen window. She smiled as her little boy scrunched up his face, squinting against the late afternoon sun. His cheeks and nose were drenched in freckles. Billy Joe hated those freckles. Freckles, he said, were for girls. Momma loved them, even though she never said so. She indulged herself by kissing those cheeks. Billy Joe didn’t like that much either - the kissing, that is - but he loved Momma so he only squirmed a little bit.

The truth was, Billy Joe soon figured, that Daddy didn’t know an awful lot about baseball. Oh, he knew the names of the players and that kind of thing, but he had never played himself. So he could tell you what a bunt looked like, but he couldn’t tell you why you’d want to do it. You could ask him why this base was stolen but that one wasn’t, and he’d answer, but his answers didn’t make a whole lot of sense and pretty soon Billy Joe stopped asking.

He stopped asking and he started listening real hard to whatall the announcers on the TV had to say. That’s how he learned that you never ever walk the pitcher, that Cubans are always at least five years older than they say they are and that catchers make the best managers. He also learned that it was possible to talk and talk and talk without really saying much of anything at all.

Suddenly he wanted his own library card. Momma had tried - and failed - to interest him a couple of years earlier. Better late than never, she said to herself. Matter of fact, she thought, it’s better this way. Better now when he thinks it’s his idea. Sure enough, he washed his face and combed his hair without being told and by the time she found her purse he was standing on the porch tapping his foot. They drove to town in Daddy’s pickup truck and returned triumphant with Billy Joe’s card, a short stack of books and glass bottle Cokes, one for each of them.

And he read. In the afternoons when his chores were done. Under the covers late at night, with a flashlight. That’s how Billy Joe met Babe Ruth and Lou Gehrig and Mickey Mantle and Roger Maris and Willie Mays and Roberto Clemente and Sandy Koufax and Joe Jackson. Tragic or heroic or in between, it didn’t matter. He wanted to know all their stories.

He played too. By the time he was 14 he was the uncontested king of the sandlot. The one in town, next to the Presbyterian Church? He played first base most of the time and he pitched the rest of the time but either way he was a star. Afterward he’d walk home, sunburnt and sore and smiling.

For a while it seemed that summer might last forever. But it didn’t, and suddenly it was September. It was September, which meant a long bus ride to the big regional high school. It meant endless hallways and a different teacher for every class and hundreds of kids he’d never even seen before.

None of that mattered to Billy Joe. Only one thing mattered to him, and that was varsity baseball tryouts. A real team? Real uniforms? It was the stuff of dreams. And it was all he wanted.

Oct 12, 20096 notes
#Friday, #King of the Sandlot
Night Vision, Chapter 6

Previously.

The summer I was 16 I went skin-diving in Hawaii. Have you ever? Propelled yourself as deep as possible, seeing all you can see through your goggles, all the while holding your breath? Before the trip I practiced and practiced. I learned all the tricks. I exercised my will of iron. I got to the point where I could hold my breath for nearly two minutes. And it was worth it. Enveloped in the cocoon-like world of the ocean, with its brilliant colors and flashing shadows and utter silence, the sense of euphoria was so profound, it seeped into my very soul, like the saltwater through my hair, and remained even when my air finally ran out and my lungs felt fit to burst. Then, and only then, I would calmly push off from the ocean floor, raise my arms above my head, and shoot to the surface. Upwards I went, effortlessly, and it felt like flying. The sunlight grew brighter and brighter, then turned to warmth on my skin. Sound came, clearer and clearer, and in the bare moment before I burst through the surface, my sense of sound was utterly exquisite, superhuman. And then I was in the air again, filling my grateful lungs. I’d shake the water from my hair, already losing my grasp of the sensory wonders that lay mere seconds away in the past, but were simply too much to remember.

That’s what it was like waking up in the hospital. Well. Not exactly. But the bursting through the surface of the ocean part? And being greeted by sunlight and sound, rushing in as if desperate to fill in a vacuum? And then not being able to clearly recall where I’d just been? That part. That part was exactly the same.

My eyes were crusty and my mouth tasted awful. Metallic. Dusty. My wrist was a dull, throbbing ache. But other than that I felt OK. Groggy. Stiff. Sore. But OK.

My mother stood on the other side of the room, in front of a window, with her back to me. I could see that she was hugging herself, rubbing her own shoulders as if she were very cold.

“Mom?” My voice cracked. She turned and I saw that there were tears on her face, but she wiped them away as she moved towards me, and by the time she stood next to me her face was pink but dry and she was smiling.

“Why am I so thirsty?” I asked. She began to laugh. And didn’t stop. Just when I was starting to get annoyed, right when I was about to ask her just what was so funny, Gregory walked into the room. His face was smudged with dirt and there was a leaf stuck in the zipper of his leather jacket, but he was smiling slightly and oh wow was he beautiful. My mother saw him and her laughter turned hysterical. She clapped Gregory on the shoulder, and left the room. I heard her giggles get fainter as she walked down the hallway.

“She’s stressed. She was worried. And now she knows everything’s OK. So she’s laughing. Because she’s relieved. Even though it’s totally inappropriate. That’s a quote. Her quote, I mean. That’s what she said. She’s been doing this for the last couple of hours. Laughing. And then explaining. Your mom’s a good time, Zoie.”

I rolled my eyes in mock horror. “I’m glad you two enjoyed your alone time.”

“Yeah. Totally. It was a real bonding experience. I’m pretty sure I’m back on her Christmas list.”

He looked down, sheepish suddenly. He reached for my wrist and rubbed his thumb gently against the plaster. And then… Well, what happened next is private. None of your business. But let me assure you: IT WAS AWESOME.

And that was the beginning.

He was right. He was most decidedly on Mom’s Christmas list. She had even thanked him for taking such good care of me. That happened while I was sleeping. Something else that happened while I was sleeping was they x-rayed my wrist and discovered that while it was indeed broken, it was a simple, clean fracture that would heal quite nicely.

Six weeks later, I watched the doctor cut off the cast. The flesh underneath was pale and wrinkly; soft, like a baby’s. I happily flexed my fingers, Luke Skywalker-style, thrilled to have my hand back. I still play the piano. I still practice with imaginary oranges. Sometimes, when it is very cold and very rainy, my wrist aches. But most of the time, if I want to, I can pretend nothing ever happened.

But back to Gregory. Like I said, that was the beginning. And what a sweet beginning it was. The next morning, early, I was released from the hospital. We had a few hours together before we both had to return to our separate schools. That first separation flew by. In the blink of an eye it was Thanksgiving, and then Christmas. Christmas break, when we had four entire uninterrupted weeks together. And that was great. Perfect. There was hiking and the diner and movies at the mall and sitting on the swing set in my backyard, in the bitter cold while everyone else in the world was sleeping. Once he even watched me get my eyebrows waxed. Afterwards, he folded me into his arms, utterly horrified and not believing it was nearly painless.

But it went by all too quickly. Midway through the last week, I decided, in a panic, that I wouldn’t sleep again. I stayed awake for the entire last 72 hours of winter break, desperate not to miss a second. Did I really believe that by staying awake I could slow down time? I did. Our last night together we went to the movies. I crawled into his lap and finally, against my will, dozed. I woke up with a start, furious with myself for wasting that time by sleeping. We finally said a tearful goodbye at 4am. My dad and I were scheduled to drive back to school at 6. I feel asleep sitting up on the couch in the living room, surrounded by my bags, still wearing my boots.

I missed him sharply.

This was the early 90s, deep in the dial-up era, long before Skype. But we got videocams and chatted. The images were wavy and delayed and there was no audio, merely text. But it was such a revelation, so exquisite, that the first time I saw him on my computer monitor I burst into happy tears. Being apart? It sucked. But we got used to it. Together, we decided that instead of being miserable about the long-distance thing, we’d use it to our advantage. Like, it really gave us something to look forward to, you know? And once we put it in those terms, it got easier. Not easy. But easier. Easy enough.

Something else happened that year. Something that I didn’t understand until later. I bloomed. I became – for lack of a better word – finished. I can still remember exactly what that felt like. What it felt like to walk around campus with the insouciant confidence of a young woman who has no idea how cute she is, because she isn’t worried about it either way.

I was focused on other things. On my syllabi and my student planner filled with color-coded post-it notes. On my clipboard and my rough drafts and my red and purple editing pens. On my flurry of index cards. On my sheet music. My Diet Peach Snapple and my monogrammed L.L. Bean briefcase and my favorite hooded sweatshirt and the Gore-tex Nikes that were the only thing I ever wore in the snow. My head was full of Baudelaire and Savonarola and Neruda and Benjamin and Virgil and Machiavelli and Erasmus and Borges. They kept me company during daylight hours. And then, after dark, I’d make my way home from the library, brew a thermos of green tea, and burrow into my blankets with my cordless phone. I’d hear Gregory’s voice, and only then would I truly get warm.

Eventually, it ended. We ended. But gently. Softly, without any meltdown or drama. Our lives simply took us in different directions. We remained in touch. He was the first person I called when I found out I passed the New York Bar, and when I bought my first new car he insisted on escorting me to the dealership, just to make sure the salesman didn’t take advantage of me.Years later, he married a friend of mine. I was a bridesmaid at his wedding. He was a guest at mine. I seriously considered naming my son Michael – Gregory’s middle name – and the only reason I didn’t was that there were already six Michaels in my extended family. (Grandma pointed that out.) Today we live about a thousand miles away from each other. We trade Christmas cards and birthday phone calls. Last summer my husband found himself in Gregory’s city on a business trip, and they met up for dinner and drinks.

Maybe it sounds funny to you. This amicable end we managed. We’re lucky, I guess. And smart enough to know that we’re still valuable to each other. I’m grateful for that, because it means that I can look back on our time together with nothing but cozy nostalgia.

It’s the little details I still savor. Like how he’d get manicures to combat the grease under his nails from working on his truck. How in spite of this girly indulgence he was the most masculine man I’ve ever known. The tiny mole on the side of his nose, the inky color of his hair and the way he carelessly tucked it behind his ear, where it curled under his earlobe like punctuation. How the skin on his face was impossibly smooth and deliciously pale. How he called me “honey” and made it sound like my name. The way he insisted on holding my hand while he drove. How if I fell asleep in the car he’d wake me up by driving over the rumble strips. That he adored candied peaches. How he’d sit me between his knees and run his fingers through my hair, never hurting me even as he worked tangles out of the mane I rarely brushed. That he always smelled like dryer sheets.

Best of all? How we could be anywhere - at a frat party teeming with people, in a crowded bar, or even mired in a sea of elementary school kids in the dinosaur room at the Museum of Natural History - yet when he caught my eye and grazed my elbow with his fingertips, I felt like we were the only two creatures in the universe.

And for a while? For a while we were.

Oct 9, 200911 notes
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